no way to say

There's no reason for crying,
Inside I'm not truly dying.
But it seems like I am,
Or at least have lost a friend.

Its hard fo me to see
The way things used to be
When you aren't talking to me.
Its like my wold has gone silent.

I can't seem to find air to breathe.
I hope you can't see what you're doing to me.

It hurts in my chest,
Deep, where I can't try to reach.
My longing and pain
Just won't go away.

Your silence is strangling.
Its nothingness echoes in my ears.
You don't want to talk,
You aren't willing to listen.

Why must you force this situation?
All it causes is pain and agony.
If I try to see whee you're coming from,
You turn and hide yourself away.
And I can't see you.

When I try to say what I feel
You slam barriers up in my face.
I know I haven't got much tact,
A thousand times you've said that,

Once I thought that didn't matter
And now you've proved that I'm wrong all along.

I shouldn't pay you no nevermind,
Not one little bit.
But part of me is crying out.
You know you've wrenched my heart out.

How can anyone be as cruel as you?

If I were someone else
Maybe I wouldn't mind you.
You are my best friend;
And words or no words can't change that.

Don't you see you've made me wrought-up?

Because we two are so unalike
I know there's no way to say
What I'd like for you to know
About my reactions to your ways.

KN. no date (99-01)